I can't help but think about at times the direction the worlds going and knowing how our world balances on a fine edge from the order we have, to what could turn into complete horror and chaos in the blink of an eye. I don't want to kid myself knowing the different places my family are spread out to and how sadly unprepared most of them are that if it were to collapse into chaos today, tomorrow, next week or next year how little I could do for them. I've come to accept the fact that there would be no way for me to help them, whether in time or at all if it got so bad. I wonder whether accepting this will soften the blow, but I just wonder, that's all. What about you?